Four Years with my Buddha Bot Mr. Ohmz
A few years ago I was very depressed. I was staring at my feet as I was shuffling them to the bus stop to go to my day job. For some reason the light was different, or the weather, who knows… but a question popped in my head:
"When was the last time you saw the sky?”
I was staring at my feet and this question would not go away. When was the last time I had looked up? I didn’t know. I couldn’t remember the last time I saw blue sky. That freaked me out. I thought for a second and something snapped. It was so cliche and simple and stupid all at once. Just look up! I knew in that moment, that I needed help. I got help.
I slowly got better after a year or two, and I started drawing and painting again, slowly. I had been dormant for years. I started doing creative things again. In 2010 I painted my blue Buddha bot. And since then I haven’t stopped.
Knowing that the art would suck. Accepting that the work will suck, but also knowing that the work that was needed… maybe could improve a little hear and there. Just a little. Just enough to keep going. Just enough to the next thing, the next drawing, the next page… the next canvas. Who knows.
I kept going. It has been four years since I painted Mr. Ohmz. I get a little better, and a little better. I’ve tried to keep going. So far so good.
This painting was me accepting that it’s easier to do the hard work in art than to not do art at all. That is the secret. I forget who said it but the quote is roughly:
"It’s easier to show up and do the art, than to not do it."
This is it in a nutshell. When I’m depressed it’s because I have NOT been working on something. Anything. All it takes is even the smallest doodle to reignite the fire in your head and under your ass!!!
Just keep telling yourself to have fun. That is the secret. Win or fail, at least you made something and had fun. That is what art is about. It is a product of a life well lived.
Make things. A lot of things. Big and small. But have fun!!! You know who you are out there.
I wrote this because I’ve been there, and you are not alone. My thoughts and best wishes for you.
Good luck ~ Sumrow